an essay

i want to make zines and submit to them

i want all my friends to be in them and smile when they see what happenened

i miss so many people of the opposite sex that i haven't seen in such a long time

i haven't seen this person in a very long time and only met him once in knoxville

at mr. gatti's before his brother died. so in this way, i feel like we're friends.

 his brother was a good person in progress

fuck, what did he miss out on. he missed out on his E News special speaking about his death without caring or giving a fuck about what he might have wanted to say about the whole thing

this person that i'm talking about is living in chicago now and he is really good at art: 

me and my platypus finger puppet friend are singing paul baribeau on repeat:

sometimes i don't wanna make new friends, sometimes i just miss my old friends

my hair is always so plain. not punk or artsy at all

i can't decide if i give a shit

i saw how much knowing who you really are pays off in social situations

i saw this on saturday night when i went out with my friend casey

i didn't feel entirely stupid, but i felt out of sync

something is wrong and for the past two months something has been wrong

and i tried to correct it, but i don't know if i can correct it.

i really really dont think i can

i finished my book, wait one second

i'm going to take a couple of pictures of it so i can show you

here:  

she couldn't get enough of it.

these pictures sort of make me nauseous, but you get the idea. 

oh and these aren't in order at all.

there is a lot of personality behind it, 

i think there are 3 different relationships in the book

1- found photograph vs found object

2- found photograph vs found photograph

3- found object vs environment surrounding found object

i hope i explored them with suitable execution

yuck, haha

the internet makes me so sad, i see how much i miss people

what did we do to remember people before the internet

i think we are just ruining reunions. 

we will never be surprised by how much people have changed

this is one of the 16x20 prints that i made this semester

i havent scanned nearly any of my work from this semester

i should get to it

such a daunting task

today is my dad's birthday

and i can't believe he's coming to visit for my birthday

and if addie and jim come....what a birthday

i want to shoot in black and white for the series i want to do this summer

i need to get up, get moving, get food.